Queer as Folk!

yeah it is old, yeah its not my generation, yeah u probly watched it as my age but who gives a shit i love the fucking show god damit! <--- no one uses god damit anymore.

i have gone through lik 3 3/4 seasons already and i dont want the show to end! im almost to the last season! i mean come on this seriously was the last gay show to b on air that u could relate to.  the show is still modern it has all the events and messages we are still seeing today, but i think we (as in my generation) a show that helps us define ourselves as an lgbt community.  now i noe exactly what ur gonna say, "there is, there is.  Its called degrassi." as much as i want to agree with u, it is not really a very gay perspective.  its, wat can i call it.... a metro perspective.  for the few gay episodes they have it much lik a fishbowl.  its written in a way tht u can tell its a straight person trying to be gay.   now i noe imma here backlash for this.  at least from one person.  but it truthfully is written that way.  no i can honestly say it s a very good fishbowl writer, but non the less a fishbowl writer. 

So this is my question to the world:
       When will i be able to see a new gay show?

i would really love one before i settle down and have a family.

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luv u all

so you noe how christmas is coming up

well i was wondering if there was any way someone wanted to go christmas shopping with me....
sounds alittle lame but who gives a shit.  i kinda need someone to bounce ideas off of and such. 
but then again i can never buy stuff for people when im with people.  sounds weird huh?
but u see im the kind of guy who lives to please others, i would sooner let myself down then another person.  i noe, i noe, i sound lik a little bitchy push over.  but i am XP so there. 
i love the fact that i some of the people i noe see me as this, ....idk what i am tryin to say.
but yeah. 
was totally tryin to go a different way with this.
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so i am gonna go christmas shoppin next week.  and i want to make the presents this year for some crazy reason.  my momma will probly just want a clean room, so y not give it to her.  my daddy would probly just want somethin differnet, mayb a new trian?  my sis now thats hard, i would say a tiara cuz she a little princess.  but she would hate that.  ill make her a cake.  my grandma would just want something from the heart. so im thinking a painting or drawing of her home town.  my uncle would want something so nasty it is funny.  so i think i will get him some of those crazy little figures.  mi lola, umm thats too hard, i think i should make her a drawing too.  mi aunt, ok i noe she is a health nut, she grew up in the mid west, grew up wit a family brewery. i would love to get her a beer but UNDERAGE HERE!  so mayb ill make her the tiara.... or a drawing idk really if she is even gonna come...family drama. 
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so i feel like my list is made
we will see how it all comes out

would u even care??

ok so would u even care if someone dropped in ur life that u didnt want.  do u noe wat i mean?...
well that pause tells me no....
so let me explain myself.  i hate to talk bout the people in my life on my blog but its a must tonite.  so i hav a guy that i would rather not talk to and would rather see with someone else then me... ok kind rambly so let me simplify. 
there is a guy.
he is hung over me.
i dont want him to b.
i dont noe y i care so much that he is there and i dont want him to b.
so u get me?
still no.  well the i guess i will just put up with his ass.  y cant he just bleed away lik he is supposed to, just lik all the others.  ugh... it makes drama for me and keeps me up thinkging of him and how we can hav an us... and how he makes me feel lik a child.
i hate guys who make me feel less then wat i am.  but they seem to be the only ones who come out.  so i guess i care that people i dont want in my life are there.
do u? or am i alone on this
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at least i hav my lovely city to absorb my sorrows

i feel lik weights are lifted.  and i just need some type of therapy, and with no one to talk to lately this is a way i can