maddness in the eyes of an athlete

but for swimming omg is it different.  for swimming i get myself nervous and then change the nervousness into anxiousness.  then the anxious feeling into full out madness! and that works for me!  so its all good

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so tommorrow is our first track meet... and i am scared shitless.  dont try to comfort me or tell me that it will all be alright and that its all in my head.  cuz, duh sherlock! of course it is in my head!  how else do u think i get ready for a meet?  hav sex? hell to the motha fuckin no!  i make myself nervous.  then get mad at myself for being nervous.  then get frustrated with myself that i am mad at myself for something that i cannot control.  then run the frustration out in a sprint!  so i am going to be three types of moody tomorrow... and i need to be that moody to hav a good race. 

guess we all get ourselves siked in different ways... mine just seems to be a way that most people dont lik or would not even think of doing.  it works for me and that is all that matters.